This is my confession...

I am not being unfair.
It is how the situation forced me and made me think that way.

Overdramatic? Probably.
But, what if I throw the ball to the other side of the court?
You'd probably react the same way as I did.

It's human nature.

I can't explain how I feel or behave or react.
I do not want to but, I did.
I want to be in control of the situation.
Maybe because I am afraid of losing you.

Definitely. Not maybe.

Neither do I want to confront an ugly situation.
That got out of hand when I could have controlled it in the beginning.
I do not want you to apologize profusely.
Or, I wished that nothing had happened.
I hate it.

It is funny when you think what you are doing is fine.
What about my feelings?

It is much calmer now.
I need to sit and think clearly.
I do not want to say the wrong things.
For all the wrong reasons.

I just want to be truthful.

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Belief

Is there anyone who
Ever remembers changing their mind from
The paint on a sign?
Is there anyone who really recalls
Ever breaking rank at all
For something someone yelled real loud one time
Everyone believes
In how they think it ought to be
Everyone believes
And they're not going easily

Belief is a beautiful armor
But makes for the heaviest sword
Like punching under water
You never can hit who you're trying for
Some need the exhibition
And some have to know they tried

It's the chemical weapon
For the war that's raging on inside
Everyone believes
From emptiness to everything
Everyone believes
And no one's going quietly
We're never gonna win the world
We're never gonna stop the war
We're never gonna beat this

If belief is what we're fighting for
What puts a hundred thousand children in the sand?
Belief can.
Belief can.
What puts the folded flag inside his mother's hand?
Belief can.
Belief can.

john mayer